I don't like the spot light,
The number of times I have said that,
That I don't want people to notice
But I think I'm scared of the spotlight
The subtle fear you don't notice
But the type that's makes you convince yourself that you don't want something.
Maybe I like the spotlight when it matters.
Maybe I'm just scared of it.
Scared I'm going to fall for everyone to see. 

The fear that crushes you.
That stops your breathing.
That aches your chest.
The loud fear.
Atleast I know where it is
And some days I can fight it off.
So when I get scared of it,
I'm relieved that I know it's routine.
And it knows mine.
I know I'll find it when I'm asked to speak
When I get lost in traffic.
I'm scared of it but I'm used to it.
It is Its other that scares me most.
The silent one.
It hides it plain sight
and pretends to be what it's not.
Pretends to be anger, hate, even apathy.
Can't fight what you can't see, can you? 

Fear can take the form of dislike. When you are scared of something, the brain finds a way to make it sound better. Dislike.? It’s sometimes easier to say I dislike dogs instead of I’m scared of dogs. Like fear is some weakness that should not be accepted, when it’s one of the most normal thing to feel and experience.

This is not to say every dislike stems from fear but a lot of it can.

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